Alliange.

Today I saw  True Love can never be achieved that easily. And yesterday I made the decision to let Lucas go. There wont be a talk I'll just wont reach him again. I will walk away, its for the best. I have a plan and I will complete it. I wont speak to him in a week first, if I manage to do that I wont speak to him in a month. And probably in two months I'll forget about him.
I can see that something is coming for me. I can feel it. And all I need to do is to be ready. My true love is in the books, it can never be achieved by reality. I'm thinking about starting a book call Alliange, a planet that future humans runaway when the Earth was contaminated. Over the years, an evil king called William raised and bring horribleness to their people, by making a deal with witches and mermaids to be immortal in return of ruling by his side. Centuries passed and the protagonist, Amelia, was born, an Alliange civilian left young by his parents. In a her road for getting food she came across a brother, Thomas and  his sister, Miranda who becomes her friends. Amelia has caught William's attention, as she was able to find a way to go to Earth. Technically a lot of people from Alliange could go to the past of the Earth, but if they spend more than 6 hours in earth for whatever reason they would die of suffocation.  The whole story is told when Amelia is living in Earth, and presenting her past in flashbacks. 4 years she lived in 2013 earth when the brother she once loved came back asking for help to bring back her sister. Now, she, a human called Ian, and Thomas are in Alliange, Amelia's biggest nightmare.

Invisible

I've been with Lucas for over three monts. If that's what it is. And when I'm with him It's great. He kisses very well, he's funny and smart, and romantic. I should be abble to love him, but I just dont. And ironnically I want HIM to love me. To say that three words every girl wants to hear. I thought the problem was the distance, and I'm not sayint it's not, but is more than that. I'm still not sure why I don't love him but it has something to do with the fact I'm not inmune to crush for another guy. Today: two. 
One is the guy I would never recomend anyone to crush. He's not smart, he's a womanizer, player, all bad things I should be repelled to. But I'm not and this crush is not just something that will be forgotten in time. I had a crush with this guy who I'm not going to name practically since I met him at the beginning of the year. 
But the bad thing is, I'm at 4th grade AND I'M INVISIBLE. I don't want to go deeper in that, but it's like no one sees me. Maybe that's why I lie, to get attention. But it's a bad habbit, that's why I'm trying to erase it. 
I mentioned another crush. For a guy I just met. He has culture, and is really handsome, I don't know a lot about him except he's a musician and a librarian hopping to become a writter. He's like me. 
But of course it's never going to happen because like I said I'm invisible. To everyone except Lucas. Maybe that's why I haven't end the whole thing dispite the distance and not loving him, because he saw me when I was invisible